han

a song lyrics for you

2005-11-12T16:42:00.000-08:00

When You Come Back To Me Again by: Garth Brooks

There's a ship out
On the ocean
At the mercy of the sea
It's been tossed about
Lost and brokenWandering aimlessly
And God somehowYou know that ship is me
'Cause there's a lighthouse
In the harbour
Shining faithfully
Pouring its light out
Across the water
For this sinking soul to see
That someone out there
Still believes in me
On a prayer, in a song
I hear your voice and
It keeps me hanging on
Raining down
Against the wind
I'm reaching out till
We reach the circle's end
When you come
Back to me again

There's a moment
We all come to
In our own time and
Our own space
Where all that we've done
We can undo
If our heart's
In the right place

On a prayer, in a song
I hear your voice and
It keeps me hanging on
Raining down
Against the wind
I'm reaching out till
We reach the circle's end
When you comeBack to me again
And again I see
My yesterday's in front of me
Unfolding like a mystery
You're changing all that is
And used to be
On a prayer, in a song
I hear your voice and
It keeps me hanging on
Raining downAgainst the wind
I'm reaching out till
We reach the circle's end
When you comeBack to me again
When you comeBack to me again

2005-11-02T22:26:00.000-08:00

my new creation! Everyone introducing Saiduck !!!

03 nov'05 selamat hari raya

2005-11-02T22:18:00.000-08:00

happy new yr my malay frens !

remember the matte painting for the esplanade? yay~ the results were out.. guess wat? i got a distintion !!! wooohooo.. thank God !

well FY is going pretty well for mi too.. i m putting alot of effort into this project.. never seen me so hard working be4 sia.. haha.. well u see i can be very hard working when i wan to be hahaha...

oh yes i have created a new character call the saiduck=shitduck.. err... dunno if ppl will be able to accept it.. haha.. u noe there is alot of conservative ppl out there who can't take aload of shit.. haha.. i'll post the pic on the next post..

Guardian angels

2005-10-16T01:33:00.000-07:00

Do u believe in guardian angel? Guardian angel are angel that protects u from harm.. Tats ppl will tell u..
Guardian angel are actually angel tat God send to accompany u and to help u. They are infact like our shadows except tat they have thinking of their own, they'll act on their own , they have their own interest, in another words they are just like us. We cannot see them yet they can see us n look thru us. They noe our thinking, they noe wat we wan, wat we need and infact they noe us better then anyone or even ourselves. Sometimes they will let u feel them, they will do that without u noeing that they exsist. Sometimes they'll let u feel their feelings too, tats wat u call mood change.
Sometimes u'll feel a sudden urge to do something out of the ordinary, its actually ur angel wanting u to do it. Sometimes u got tat urge but u just brush it aside and didn do it. There be times when u regret not doing it. We all have the rite to choose, God gave us the rites to choose, so the angels are here to suggest to us, to give us the urge but to do or not to do it is up to us. Angels are always there for us, to help us, to guide us and to protect us.
Like i've said each person have their own angel. Sometimes we got a crash on another person, its actually due to the angel u have, have a liking for the other angel. They are very direct they'll noe if they like the other but whether the relationship will work out will have to depend on u urself. Tat is y sometimes we can click with one but we can't click with the other.
Angels are always gd, thats y they are call angels but when u do evil stuff like killing they can become evil as they are soke in blood. They become fallen angel and when they do there is no turning back. u'll be addicted to killing, u won't even think killing is wrong, u'll come to enjoy it even. Becoming evil is easy but going back to being good is very very hard.
Ur guardian angel is onli here to help, everything u do is up to u.

painting of esplanade

2005-09-28T20:29:00.000-07:00

a painting i painted

An assignment i did for one of my digital module.. it took me super long for this thing.. i think i used more then 200 hrs for this painting ba.. yup its not a photo.. yes its a digital painting.. a 100% digital painting.. see the guy over at the bottom left ? tats suppose to be mi... haha.. i hope i score well for this.. was late for a week.. arghhh.. pls lec dun take away my scores... lol..

2005-09-13T19:39:00.001-07:00

sch on fire. pic2

2005-09-13T19:39:00.000-07:00

sch on fire.pic1

2nd of sept.. burning of sch..

2005-09-02T19:11:00.000-07:00

wa something really exciting happened n the lec thought its my fault cos i m there lol.. but well its no one's fault anyways.. but its n experience.. sorry i wrote it after so long.. alot of work to do i almost forgot abt it.. lol.. anyways.. the day i nearly burnt down the sch.. yup wow..

i was doing modelling in sch tat day, i was modelling "Death".. so its a skeleton skull.. well we have to backe the thing in order to harden it.. the oven is home made with cardbox as the covering.. later my fren ask mi if i wanna bake with his model so i place my model head into the oven with my frens model.. later my lec ask us to go n collect something so we went for abt like 10 mins.. later while we are on the way back my lec recieve a phone call telling him tat our model is on fire..
i thought its just badly burnt but still i ran back with my lec slowly follow behind.. he also thought its nothing serious ba.. then when i reached i saw alot of smoke n water is gushing out.. the splankle is on.. i wanted to go in and tell the ppl tat there is a fire or try to put out the fire.. but the smoke too heavy.. when later the fire got put out we were brought for Questioning n statments..
in the end we have to pay for nothing n the case is now close.. wa thank God tat we dun have to pay for the dmg.. lol..

13th april wed

2005-04-13T08:45:00.000-07:00

heh.... ermmm.. i m back from hell~ heh... pls dun look so surprised n all. well i m really really really busy and tired from all the assignments and i still am now.. sheesh all the shit is really killing mi i feel so worn out.. been working from 9am to 9pm all the way in sch.. be4 this its even worst,i've been working non stop for my animation..

aww.. i m really sorry to start complaining like this, since i just came back to writing this haha... anyways today is pretty tiring haiz, i really feel like slping now.. dun feel like carrying on with work at hm haha..

i had an idea for an animation today, well not really today hmm anyways tats not impt.. i think i better tell u abt the animation idea be4 i 4get..

i wan to animate a character based on an eagle man with a red indian look to it sitting in a pub, those wooden ones with an old look to it and those ppl ard him are animal ppl to well its kinda like an animal kingdoom, well the eagle job is a hunter well those tat hunts monsters.. yup u guess it.. its a fantasy type of story but a very short one. while he is sitting n drinking suddenly some guy just swing open the door and shouts :"Hanz! quick outside! the thief is getting away!" so he rushed out to see a dragon flying off.. he opens his wings n give a chase after the dragon..

well i guess i can do pretty much animation wif just those stuff... i just hope i'll do this instead of just typing it down..

wish mi luck k? ~_o

oh ya for today rating i give a 6/10

2004-12-31T11:04:00.000-08:00

boat quay celebrating new year

Happy 2005

2004-12-31T10:51:00.000-08:00

gee just now had so much fun at boat quay.. things was pretty slow when we had dinner.. btw we got late there like 1 hr late cos of the rain.. then the buffet was not really great i prefer hawker food.. lolx..

just when we dunno wat we are going to do, my frens went n got us some party spray.. then its war!! haha.. had so much fun spraying each other and all

later another idea came to us! tat when new yr come we'll go n spray ppl on the streets in boat quay.. soo fun it seems tat the ppl in s'pore is pretty fun too cos they respond and spray us back!instead of trying to be cool n give a look. there is a couple who played with us n gave us some bottles too but then we used it to sprayed them haha... soo funny...

we were drenched with colors it was a realli colorful sight.. a colorful 2005.. i think the new yr will be a colorful one! things will go as smooth as the wind in the coming yr! wishes will come true n there will be peace ard.. the tidal wave will be the last disaster ever for many yrs to come..

i pray to God tat more surviors will be found and the dead will find their way to the lord in heaven..

i pray in the yr ahead everything will go smooth for all n tat the yr ahead will be filled with blessings!

Quote: after the rain will come the sun which will brighten up everything~

Happy New Year everyone!!

2004-12-27T01:00:00.000-08:00

merry christmas everyone!! a card i made for all of u ~~~

2004-12-27T00:57:00.000-08:00

all the handsome n the pretties present at the birthday

2004-12-27T00:50:00.000-08:00

me n keith's present for Garion ( also a t-shirt i did)

2004-12-27T00:47:00.000-08:00

me n keith's present for Eric ( a shirt i design myself)

2004-12-27T00:44:00.000-08:00

me and the guys during Garion's n Eric's birthday~~

2004-11-20T09:54:00.000-08:00

thats me working in coldwear

friday, nov 19, 2004

2004-11-20T01:42:00.000-08:00

Today's Steff's birthday~~ Happy birthday Steff~~ Hope u've enjoyed the celebration.. May all ur wishes come true..
As it was still early and i was kinda bored staying hm, I went to meet Peiling earlier in the afternoon at 3pm to go shopping at West Mall. I kinda left in a rush as i was going to be late, had wasted too much time burning all the anime that i borrowed from Qing Yuan.
When i reached Dover MRT station(the nearest MRT at my place) I realized that my hp wasn't with mi! I thought i could do without it, i mean its just for today wat will go wrong? Well i was wrong, really wrong, that was the begining of a very very bad day.
When i reached the MRT station i was kinda late so i begin to search for Peiling but to no avail, so i decided to wait there. 30 mins passed and still no sign of her, i began to get pretty anxious. I was thinking maybe she had reached but couldn't find me as i forgot to tell her where to meet and so she went to the mall. So i went to the mall to search for her, as i was abt to go to the mall 2 gals came to sell some donation cards to me, they almost got me as one of the gals is pretty but i just refuse kindy.
Back to the seach for Peiling. I went in and out of the mall, to the Mrt and back and still i can't find her. At last i called hm and ask my dad to check my hp for her number, he said he can't find my hp! I called my hp next and there wasn't any1 picking it up, i mean my dad would've heard the hp ring and pick it up. Then i tried to call again but this time i can't get thru! Did i lost the Hp on the bus b4 i took the MRT? Now i really got worried, after another try i got thru again but still no one picked up. Peiling is my onli hope now, i have to find her..I went to the mall to search again.
I was like an abandon child roaming ard.. It was raining too.. Manz the feeling of bitterness, it was really saddening.. i almost lost faith in God and all..
At last i found her at the ATM, thank God! I complained and complained to her. After finishing up on the Bday present and all that we went to Steff hse to help out and later on, the party was great~~ We had fun. Later that nite my dad called telling mi that he found my Hp. Thank God it was not lost!
Manz i kinda realised that i can't do without my Hp, Wat a great invention! Manz wat a lousy day today i rate a 2/10 for this day!

2004-11-19T09:52:00.000-08:00

Steff's Birthday

Thurs,nov 18th 2004

2004-11-19T03:15:00.000-08:00

I've heard about Blogs n stuff. Had ppl telling me to make one and all that.. well then on the 17th of nov a fren of mine Pamela who is in Aus rite now told me of her blog. And i decided to make one.Well not really to please her or anything but just that i can remember things that had happened and to write down the ideas and feelings that came to me.
I just found out that i had lots of things to write and ermmm.. have to admit that this blog thingy is actually erhmm.. fun..
Was working today and manz there are some really irritating customers.. there was one that i've to keep repeating the price of the clothes to him and i was really i mean really patient with him but at last he didn't buy what i was promoting.. manz.. lucky my bro jieshen was working with me or i think i'll be really bored. What a tiring day although i onli work for 4 hrs. lol
At the end of the day I almost forgot about Steff's birthday present. The shops were all closed but lucky Sue a stuff working in Coldwear at imm(thats where i was working) had a watch which was 1st hand and wanted to sell it. So i just bought it from her. Well the watch was pretty nice and i think it'll suit Steff just rite.
When i return hm i found out that my dad off the switch to my comp ! arghh... i was D/L an anime half way! manz i just hope he'll just hands off my stuff in my room.. was thinking i can watch Inuyasha when i return hm, now i'll have to on the comp the whole nite thru so tat i can watch it the next morning... not a very gd day today.. i rate a 5/10 for today..

P.S: Happy birthday Steff, hope u'll like my gift..

Existence

2004-11-19T01:32:00.000-08:00

As i woke up i find myself at the steps of my house, with a t-shirt n shorts which i've worn to sleep last nite. I was puzzled at how come i'd land up at the door step of my house instead of the soft comfortable bed of mine. Did i get thrown out of the house by my family members? Did i do something wrong that angered them? What did i do? What did i do that was so wrong that they have to throw me out like that in the middle of the nite? This had never ever happened to me before, not even when i was a mischievous kid.
I remembered when i was a kid i hit my brother in the private and my dad threatened to throw me out,i was so scared i hid in the closet at nite but in the end he didn't. Well maybe because my bro didn't become impotent or something.
Ghasp!! Maybe he just found that he was ! And they threw me out becos of that! But they would have yelled at me or at least scold me a bastard or something before chasing me out. i know them really well they won't just throw me out without scolding me or anything. So what could have happened?
It was about 7am in the morning and the wind is strong. I felt the cold wind stinging my skin. It felt as though the wind is laughing at my misfortune.
Before i can knock on the door, it opened and my brother in his army clothes came out. He looked straight at me in the eyes, i felt as if he was staring through me instead of at me. He just walked pass mi without saying anything and countinued to wear his shoes. I walked into the house without talking to him as i find it pointless to talk to him as maybe he was angry with me.
i went into my room. i was stunned. The room which had been mine turned into a rest room! My stuffs all gone! There is not even a trace of my stuff, the stuff in the room was a total stranger to me, i've never seen those things before.
I heard my parents room door open and i saw my mom came out. I went towards her and asked her what had happened, whats going on? She just ignored me n carry on to cook breakfast. Man she must have hate me. I went back to my room, ermm.. my new room.
I just sat there thinking what was going on?! Then something caught my attention. I went over to the photo stand and looked at the photo where i remembered that me and my family had taken on my grandma's birthday. But on the photo there is no ME! I m supposed to be in the photo! i looked at the other albums. There wasn't a trace of me in it!
What is happening?! Do i even exist? Someone pls tell mi what's going on!?

to be continued.....
when free heh..

2004-11-18T10:33:00.000-08:00

me and classmates at indochine after resfest

2004-11-18T07:46:00.000-08:00

drawing of me